Wow.

A whole lot sure has changed in a year. It was definitely all for the better, and I'm content with the decision I made for my baby girl and myself.

It's Depressing.

"I care."
One of those phrases people are supposed to use when someone is feeling down. But how do you know when someone Really cares? I'm not sure there is a way. Suppose you believe them and then once you are feeling better they just leave. What do you do then? Next time you're depressed you won't believe people when they tell you they care..you obtain a sense of worthlessness. I've yet to find a way to overcome this. Hopefully I will soon.
I don't like feeling alone.

Continually Questioning...

Tonight I can't help but wonder if I've made the right decision.

Now that I'm alone,

I'm lonely and I miss him.

Got Dressed Through The Mess And Put A Smile On My Face.

Sometimes I sit and wonder what kind of impact (if any) my life has on others. Am I supposed to live my life to please others or to make myself happy? I find that lately I seem to be letting everyone down. I don't make the right choices or act the right way or even make enough time for people. I don't know what the right thing to do is anymore. I become the bad guy for wanting to better my life. Somehow that doesn't seem right to me, though like I asked before...what is the reason I am here? For all I know, I may be way off in my priorities..I wish someone would just tell me the right thing to do.
Lately-
I can't help but wonder if anyone would even cry if I died. Sad thing is, I'm not sure they would.