Eat Pray Love

"I had actively participated in every moment of the creation of this life- so why did I feel like none of it resembled me?"

--Liz
Eat Pray Love

Only Girl (In The World)

I'm looking for some feedback here... How realistic do you think this is?

Gratitude.

Be grateful for what you have, for you never know when it might disappear from your life.

Oh My.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can and The wisdom to know the difference.

Cause today I sure need it.

A Journey Unknown.

What are we doing here? How are we supposed to know what the right thing to do is?

My mind is constantly churning and analyzing life, situations, myself, my choices and other people.

I am beginning to feel lost. What is the right choice? What is the right answer? Am I even doing the right thing? Am I setting a good example for my daughter? Where is the fine line between being a good parent and being my own person; having my own separate identity? Where do my expectations and ideals come from? Invented by a soul so fragile it needed them for survival I'm sure.

While I don't have the strength, courage, or want to believe in a higher power that knows what is best for me,  I feel I need to come in touch with my soul. To connect and have some sort of inner peace. My mind is stricken with questions that remain unanswered. The anxiety I feel on a daily basis is becoming more difficult to control. I feel if I don't remain steadfast on my life journey and remain constantly busy, the possibilities of what could happen are endless. What if I lose control and everything falls apart again? What is currently holding me together? I don't know. I feel at any moment everything could change and I will be back where I started.

I read something today about success. It went something like this: success is not measured by how much we have or who we know but rather it should be measured by how far we have come.

I fear failure. While there is a big part of me that continually strives for perfection, I am aware that this goal is completely unattainable. I am not sure if I could handle my life completely and utterly falling apart again. I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

I suppose I just need to have faith in myself and stop second guessing my own choices. Every single one I've made has been for a specific reason, unconsciously known or not. Sometimes though, I just need that little bit of reassurance that I'm headed in the right direction. It makes me feel safe.

:)

Don't waste a minute not being happy.  If one window closes, run to the next window -- or break down a door.  - Brooke Shields

Poem.

AUTOBIOGRAPHY IN FIVE SHORT CHAPTERS

                Portia Nelson

Chapter I

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost... I am hopeless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter II

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in this same place.
But it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter III

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it there.
I still fall in... it's a habit... but, my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter IV

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter V

I walk down another street.